Courage! Even Victory Requires It

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Often, when I hear people speak of the favor of the Lord; they speak in tones that say, “If I do this His way and am in His will – this will be easy street!”  I’ve even had people to say to me that when they are trying to accomplish something for God and it seems that they are facing too much difficulty and feeling like they are putting up a fight, they take that as a sign that they are not going God’s way. This, however, is not a biblical truth.

The Lord can speak to you assuring you victory in a certain situation but that does not ever mean that you won’t have to work for it.  It does not mean that you won’t have to even fight for it.  As I look back over my own life, I can testify that where I am today as the maidservant of the Lord did not come without lots of opposition and some pretty intense fighting!!

I am not aware of what the Lord has promised you or what word He has sent someone to speak over or into your life. But whatever it is – you have to believe that it is worth a fight and you have to resolve to be strong and courageous; standing firm until your victory is won! His promises are yes and Amen! – but He never promised any of us an easy road. If the Lord said it – it is a sure thing! Believe it is so! The enemy and those who are being used by the enemy would love to thwart God’s plans for your life! Never forget that the God who has made the promise never ever fails — never give up without a fight!

Divine Do Overs

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Bob Carlisle wrote a song back in 1996 that was made popular by Donnie McClurkin, “We Fall Down”. The song talks about a person discovering the grace of God in His failures – realizing even people of God made mistakes and the grace of God covered them and gave them a new start. We all have different testimonies – but all of us have made our share of mistakes – we have all said and done things that we later regretted and as we take a backwards look at our lives, we know it was the grace of God that kept us. As for me – I am amazed at how the Lord has kept me in spite of me! My testimony is that I faltered, but  because of His grace – it was never fatal!

God does not delight in our mistakes but He delights in our desire  to obey Him. Even when we falter, He sees our hearts and knows whether we are truly seeking His will or seeking to satisfy ourselves. Think about it with this statement – powerful in every way …. 

  • WHEN you desire to obey Him
  • When YOU desire to obey Him
  • When you DESIRE to obey Him
  • When you desire to OBEY Him;

He will honor your obedience with His presence and power in your life!

Sometimes we step out in front of God; moving before we get his direction about something that seems urgent. What does stepping out in front of God look like?  It looks like:  getting something off our chests when we should’ve keep quiet; taking out a payday loan when we need to manage the funds we have; buying that sale item when we don’t really need to be spending; eating that last piece of pie when we know we don’t need it; getting into a relationship that we know is ungodly; compromising our morals because it seems like an easier way; etc.  When we move outside of His will, we are failing to exercise our right to rely on The One who will always guide us to the best action and decision for our lives. When we fail to follow His lead – we will miss out of His best for us.

The great thing about being a Christ follower is that because we are His chosen ones – we have access to His grace. Because we have access to His grace — we always have access to a course correction.  We might have to go back to the drawing board — but He will be there waiting to redirect us – to get us headed in the right direction.  He knew we were going to muddle things; He knew we couldn’t keep His commandments without His intervention; He knew that we would botch even His simplest commands — so, in His great love, He sent us a Savior! He gave us unlimited access to His grace!  When we mess up He has a giant eraser AND a beautiful paint canvas!  How awesome is that?!

Here’s the deal — we all make mistakes; but He, in His infinite kindness towards us, will always be willing to give us a do over. We can rest assured that as we trust in Him and seek to obey Him (seek to OBEY Him!); He will honor us with His direction and His presence in our situation. Take a step back from your situation; your temptation; your stressor — He will gladly guide you in the right way allowing you to start over because it gives Him great joy to bless your life when you are leaning on His understanding and not your own.

Our mistakes do not have to be fatal errors — we really can start over!  CTRL/ALT/DEL — reboot — start again.

The steps of a man are established by the LORD, And He delights in his way. (‭Psalms‬ ‭37‬:‭23‬)

No Compromising

No-Compromise1 Kings 20:42 “He said to him, “Thus says the Lord, ‘Because you have let go out of your hand the man whom I had devoted to destruction, therefore your life shall go for his life, and your people for his people”

God gave Israel victory and according to God’s law the enemy should have been destroyed – in allowing the king to live, Israel sinned against God.

Sometimes the things that God asks us to do are hard things.  They are hard because we view them through a human lens and want to judge the actions based upon human logic.  If the Lord tells us to slay a giant – we feel that this act would be inhumane – and we would, instead, want to imprison the giant.  This is a truth across our lives and is truly a test of our heart’s devotion to God.

When we face an issue, are we really willing to do whatever it is God demands of us?  We want Him to assure our victory, but are we really willing to do whatever he demands?

I am reminded of the scripture that tells us that those who love him and would follow him would ‘hate’ father, mother, sister, brother, etc.  There are times in our lives when God may ask us to cut off relationships, confront sin, admonish the unfaithful and even harder tasks.  He assures our victory if we would only obey his word without compromise.  But our hearts and minds must be truly girded up with the full armor of God if we are to be able to stand.  It is important that we remember at all times that our lives are hidden inwrapped up in — and lost in … the person of Jesus Christ.  If we take thought of our own desires or even the unpleasant nature of a request posed to us by the Father we are living with our minds on things of this earth.  As we set our minds on God’s will and God’s way – it is imperative that we really believe that without obedience victory will not come.   We must live our lives in the name of and for the sake of our King.  No compromise!  It is good to extend mercy – but not if God speaks against it.  It is good to be gracious to our enemies – but not if God speaks against it.  We must be prayerful – listening – trusting.

Father,  As you lead me and guide me, may my heart be malleable, open and ready to receive your instruction.  Help me to lean only on your understanding and not be tempted to bring to mind what I believe and know in the flesh.  Father help me to obey completely at all times and in all situations.  Help me to fight the fear of this world and this age and to embrace Your approval only.  May my heart seek to obey, love and trust you with all that is within me.  When you tell me to rout the enemy, please give me the courage to do so.  When you tell me to extend mercy, please give me the wisdom to do so. Lead me and guide me.  I will follow.  Amen

Calling Out To Him .. In Times Of Trouble

I was reading Genesis 32 this morning and was just rejoicing over the wonderful truth that He is deliverer to His children! (read Genesis 32:9-12 to get an image)

Have you ever felt like the Lord made a promise to you? I mean specific promises at some time in your life? Every promise from the Lord in the Bible is true, He never fails and His Word is Truth. But what about a prayer that you have lifted to Him and heard His voice, knowing what He has for you …

OK, I know that this is difficult to hear well. Here’s my deal … in my other life the difficulty was just tremendous, beyond anything I’d understand or was able to bear. There were people led by the enemy that were determined to destroy me, not just physically/mentally; but they wanted to confuse my faith. Can you imagine that? I was in despair BUT I was so clear about God’s guidance and promises to me and, praise God, I was living in obedience and submission to Him – don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t in perfection but I knew who My Father was and had a desire to serve Him well. I had been shown by The Lord that my life would bring Him glory, so I had the good sense to ask God for peace in a certain type of way. I asked Him to protect me from the enemy and put me in a path that would make everyone around me so aware of His power and faithfulness. I really did tell Him what I hoped for. About 2 months later it came out of nowhere! I knew for sure that the only way it could have come is that He sent it. In my case the enemy was doing what he is good at, he was causing me to feel weak, afraid, and lost. When I went to the Word of God and saw a particular promise –

Pray to the Lord, and he will hear you. He will save you from all your troubles.

Psalm 34:17

I cried out to my Father believing with no doubt at all that He heard me. I knew what I needed and asked him from deliverance from what I specifically was facing and I’m telling you that His deliverance came and He spoke to me when I was thanking Him, letting me know that what He promises His children is always true!

I have friends dealing with marital abuse, job issues, health issues, mental issues and more … and I know that the despair has made many just want to give up, but I’m telling you from my own experience that the promises in God’s Word are true. When life issues come, it can feel like nothing will go well. Do you know what I mean? When we are living a life of obedience and call upon the Lord, all that is difficult will work out for our good … He will save us from out troubles. Now … you saw that it took 2 months for my deliverance, your wait might be shorter or longer, but I’m telling you He will save you!

There are issues that can frighten us completely, but, as children of the Most High God we have guidance from Him to cry out to Him! He does not fail! His promises are true!

Father, my thanks to You cannot be nearly enough for how you’ve kept me! I am completely undeserving of Your faithfulness, Your mercy and Your grace; but You just keep showing it to me in amazing ways! I believe what You’ve told me about what my life will be for the sake of Your glory; and, when the enemy speaks to me I will tell him to get behind me because I know that he cannot and will not prevail. Thank You Lord! I won’t be afraid because I know that Your lovingkindness and faithfulness will come my way!

Victory in My Father, My Lord, My King

One more week since the last update and I’ll say again that I Did Not Have One Seizure!

We left Strasbourg and proceeded to Albertville via automobile to visit two more families. A favorite experience was with one of our MKs (missionary kids) who approached me and asked “OK, Aunt Jan … what is my name?” She was honored and happy when I answered Isabella. She had no complaint when I couldn’t remember her siblings name without a little help. LOL! Something to shout about!!

We were with a total of 4 couples (some with children) to carry out the roles of our job and I found great joy in all of it. I was happy to know them when I saw them; and not to be lost in my memory most of the time.

Headed back to the USA! We will fly out from Geneva, Switzerland where it is 38 degrees as I write this from inside!! I’m a Texan! Anything under the 50s is just too cold! LOL! 

Two doctors visits as soon as I return; one with the neurologist and another with the neurosurgeon. The visits with The Lord have been impactful and truly health changing. I believe with no doubt at all that all is well … in fact, this Jan is even more amazing than that first one!


I started this particular surgical journey with a deep fear of the medicine that puts you to sleep for surgery … what do you call that? I just cannot remember it! I thought that I wouldn’t make it under just that medication. The Lord sent a woman, Etta, to walk and sing with me all the way into the surgery room and as we sang a song of praise I calmed myself. I woke up many hours later after a completed surgery in my right mind – may the Lord bless you Etta!! Etta found me when I went through the first surgery! As God works in our lives … it turns out that Etta and I are members of the same church family AND that Etta happens to know the surgeon AND that Etta is in management at the hospital where I’ve had to be. And neither of us knew one another until this journey started!

Another thing that happened as I was preparing me for this trip.  I mentioned to a friend, Wessilee, that I was concerned about taking this bald head to Europe because I was updated that it was so cold. Just a few days before I got on that airplane Wessilee crocheted for me that orange hat that is on my head! I was warm … and quite cute too! LOL!  Did I mention that I did not even know that she crocheted professionally until after I shared with her that I’d be cold! She asked me my favorite color and blessed me greatly!

My friends, this has happened quite a bit all the way through all of this. I pray that my words are so very clear … God has sent His love to me through every one of you!! You’re a gift from God to me … so, pour this love gift you have out everywhere you go! And for those of you who are having issues, share your hearts with others in the Body of Christ because Our Father will use them to bless you!


I have a wonderful husband, two loving (though bossy!) sons, a wise mom, a Godly sister, supporting cousins, etc. etc. and they have all just made their time available to care for me; they weren’t surprising, because I know they love me. But that wasn’t ALL!!! My church family blew my mind in their love and care – especially at moments that weren’t expected! My alto sisters from the worship ministry have been just wonderful! My friends that have known me a long time … they just left me speechless as they came to babysit me and did so much more! AND in amazing love The Lord sent me EVERY ONE OF YOU!! Each of you have sent me words of encouragement and responded to the blogs in a way that let me know I was not alone in the human life! Thank You! 
 Y’all we are children of God – those of us who are believers. We need to remember and accept that there will sometimes be difficulties for sure. But I’m telling you that even when trials that we face seem like they just might bring complete destruction, He promises that because we are His children – He will Be our covering! If you are His, He’s got you!! Y’all, he loves us and we are precious to Him. I’m believing Him, and claiming victory through Him in all of this.

Father, I have no doubt that these seizure issues never removed me from Your presence. In fact I have known at all times that I was with You! I knew that as I walked through all of the issues that followed the seizures they would not destroy my brain. The seizures would not remove my ability to do my job. The seizures would not remove my faith in You!  I’ve known from the beginning of all of this, that every time that I had sense enough to cry out to You – You would hear me and with Your Greatness, You would do things that this human mind of mine could just never imagine!! You, only You, are my God!  I love you, Lord! My love for You keeps me from ever doubting that You will protect me! I acknowledge You, Almighty God, at all times.  I will call upon You no matter what I am facing because there is no doubt all that you will answer me. I know you are with me in this and in all things and I know that you will deliver me and that You will ensure that I know how to share this testimony for the rest of my life.  Hallelujah!! I worship You and I love you beyond what I am able to express fully!! (Isaiah‬ ‭43:2; Psalm 86: 7-10, 91: 14-15

Jan with flowers in cold weather