Victory in My Father, My Lord, My King

One more week since the last update and I’ll say again that I Did Not Have One Seizure!

We left Strasbourg and proceeded to Albertville via automobile to visit two more families. A favorite experience was with one of our MKs (missionary kids) who approached me and asked “OK, Aunt Jan … what is my name?” She was honored and happy when I answered Isabella. She had no complaint when I couldn’t remember her siblings name without a little help. LOL! Something to shout about!!

We were with a total of 4 couples (some with children) to carry out the roles of our job and I found great joy in all of it. I was happy to know them when I saw them; and not to be lost in my memory most of the time.

Headed back to the USA! We will fly out from Geneva, Switzerland where it is 38 degrees as I write this from inside!! I’m a Texan! Anything under the 50s is just too cold! LOL! 

Two doctors visits as soon as I return; one with the neurologist and another with the neurosurgeon. The visits with The Lord have been impactful and truly health changing. I believe with no doubt at all that all is well … in fact, this Jan is even more amazing than that first one!


I started this particular surgical journey with a deep fear of the medicine that puts you to sleep for surgery … what do you call that? I just cannot remember it! I thought that I wouldn’t make it under just that medication. The Lord sent a woman, Etta, to walk and sing with me all the way into the surgery room and as we sang a song of praise I calmed myself. I woke up many hours later after a completed surgery in my right mind – may the Lord bless you Etta!! Etta found me when I went through the first surgery! As God works in our lives … it turns out that Etta and I are members of the same church family AND that Etta happens to know the surgeon AND that Etta is in management at the hospital where I’ve had to be. And neither of us knew one another until this journey started!

Another thing that happened as I was preparing me for this trip.  I mentioned to a friend, Wessilee, that I was concerned about taking this bald head to Europe because I was updated that it was so cold. Just a few days before I got on that airplane Wessilee crocheted for me that orange hat that is on my head! I was warm … and quite cute too! LOL!  Did I mention that I did not even know that she crocheted professionally until after I shared with her that I’d be cold! She asked me my favorite color and blessed me greatly!

My friends, this has happened quite a bit all the way through all of this. I pray that my words are so very clear … God has sent His love to me through every one of you!! You’re a gift from God to me … so, pour this love gift you have out everywhere you go! And for those of you who are having issues, share your hearts with others in the Body of Christ because Our Father will use them to bless you!


I have a wonderful husband, two loving (though bossy!) sons, a wise mom, a Godly sister, supporting cousins, etc. etc. and they have all just made their time available to care for me; they weren’t surprising, because I know they love me. But that wasn’t ALL!!! My church family blew my mind in their love and care – especially at moments that weren’t expected! My alto sisters from the worship ministry have been just wonderful! My friends that have known me a long time … they just left me speechless as they came to babysit me and did so much more! AND in amazing love The Lord sent me EVERY ONE OF YOU!! Each of you have sent me words of encouragement and responded to the blogs in a way that let me know I was not alone in the human life! Thank You! 
 Y’all we are children of God – those of us who are believers. We need to remember and accept that there will sometimes be difficulties for sure. But I’m telling you that even when trials that we face seem like they just might bring complete destruction, He promises that because we are His children – He will Be our covering! If you are His, He’s got you!! Y’all, he loves us and we are precious to Him. I’m believing Him, and claiming victory through Him in all of this.

Father, I have no doubt that these seizure issues never removed me from Your presence. In fact I have known at all times that I was with You! I knew that as I walked through all of the issues that followed the seizures they would not destroy my brain. The seizures would not remove my ability to do my job. The seizures would not remove my faith in You!  I’ve known from the beginning of all of this, that every time that I had sense enough to cry out to You – You would hear me and with Your Greatness, You would do things that this human mind of mine could just never imagine!! You, only You, are my God!  I love you, Lord! My love for You keeps me from ever doubting that You will protect me! I acknowledge You, Almighty God, at all times.  I will call upon You no matter what I am facing because there is no doubt all that you will answer me. I know you are with me in this and in all things and I know that you will deliver me and that You will ensure that I know how to share this testimony for the rest of my life.  Hallelujah!! I worship You and I love you beyond what I am able to express fully!! (Isaiah‬ ‭43:2; Psalm 86: 7-10, 91: 14-15

Jan with flowers in cold weather

Encouraged … believing the healing is coming

When dealing with this kind of healing – a situation where my salvation in Christ and my strong dependence upon the Father and my strong listening to the Holy Spirit is real – there is just no way for me to be in fear.

My rules from the doctor in these first two weeks is quite real – I have to study regular language; I have to practice the names of my family; I have to rehearse and reintroduce the names of my friends, neighbors, and others that are in my regular community.

I’m enjoying hearing from people that love me deeply and who just want to be close and understand the journey! I haven’t been able to see everyone physically, but it has been amazing joy knowing that they’ve come by or called.

I’m enjoying the beauty of waking up each day desiring my Father; my Savior; and the Spirit that works in me in amazing ways!!!

It’s only week one – but I’ll be great! I know the survived Jan be used in amazing ways by the God who called me!

Keep praying!

Christ I have nothing but encouragement from being united with You, my Savior I have no doubt at all that Your love is comforting me. I have no doubt, that my Father is ensuring my connection with the Holy Spirit. Father God, Jesus, and Holy Spirit I have no doubt that depending upon you means that I will be like-minded with you, that I will be having the same love that you have placed in my heart and that I will be one in spirit and one in purpose for the sake of my belief in You!! (Philippians 2: 1–2)

Peace, Faith, Thanksgiving

The things we have to face on this earth can make your throat tighten.

Cancer; Deaths of those we love; Insurmountable Debt; Divorce; Infertility; Depression; Illness; Surgery; Joblessness …

Our minds tend to think about the worst outcome … fear is a normal reaction. But hope is too …

My surgery is today and I’ve had a couple of crying spells thinking about being under anesthesia for 6 hours, but a friend reminded me that my Savior, The King of Kings, was in tears in the Garden of Gethsemane. And He was crying not because of fear but because in His human state he to wasn’t looking forward to pain or being in the hands of others …

So, I’ve regrouped!

I will be anxious for nothing! Even in this surgery I will give thanks for the amazing medical care thanking God with all that is within me that this didn’t happen our beloved Nkwanta.

Lord, be with me. Guide the hands of everyone involved. Keep the minds of everyone clear. The machines, Lord, keep in perfect working condition. Cleanliness in every space. No infection. I claim your peace because I know that beyond anything it will cover and protect my heart and my mind in my Savior Jesus, who is the Christ! Indeed I will submit my heart to you so that your peace, to which I was called, will rule and so that my response to it all will be thanksgiving. Amen

(Philippians 4: 6–7; Colossians 3: 15)

Enough?

As a missionary, I have had countless people ask what it was like to have water that ran out; to have electricity that wasn’t reliable; to have friends that were an ocean away.

I was asked often how Lloyd and I started in Ghana with no team, no one to talk us through, no language, no understanding of culture.

The answer – Jesus!

It may sound simple – trivial – even ridiculous; but I can say I’m full truth that being in the situations we were in taught us to be complete satisfied and even desirous of Jesus because we knew that He was right there and that He would be willing to give us more and more and more of Him!

When Jesus tells us that the water will not run dry, it is an amazing truth! When he placed us in a village with no community we found deep love. When he placed us in a situation with no lead we felt a road of clear guidance in the natural. When he placed us where we didn’t know how to get around we felt provided for.

He is more than enough – ALWAYS!

But anyone who drinks the water I give will never be thirsty again. The water I give people will be like a spring flowing inside them. It will bring them eternal life.

‭‭John‬ ‭4:14‬

Don’t Get Caught Up In A Bunch of Spare Rituals!

Grace Changes EverythingIn order to live under His grace – we must believe that He is exactly who He says He is and that we are exactly who He says we are!

We’ve all made these types of statements and one time or another:    “Well, at least I’m not as bad as ???”; “Yeah I did that, but at least I didn’t act like ???”; “I’m a Christian! I go to church every Sunday!”.  We have all, at one time or another, had an established list of must do items that we believed made us more righteous than another; or we have all held ourselves out to be better than someone else to justify or glaze over our own sin.  Some have gotten caught up in rituals that they think make them more righteous — thanking God for food loudly in a restaurant; participating in an annual church outreach event; using all the right words (blessed and highly favored, I’m doing well by his grace, etc.); wearing Christian t-shirts/fish/crosses; etc.  Still others have become legalistic in an effort to prove themselves ‘holier than thou’.  Well, none of that will cause you to live fully under the grace of God.

If we want to live victoriously, we have to take Him at His word.  If we want to experience His favor, we have to believe Him in such a way that our faith can be counted as righteousness.  There is no way – absolutely no way – to please Him with rules and rituals.  Rules and Rituals only give us cause to judge one another.  When my boys were younger, they loved listening to The Cross Movement.  They had a song that said:

Without Christ it ain’t spiritual – you’re just caught up in a bunch of spare rituals” – The Cross Movement

If our spiritual lives consist only of rules, regulations, and statutes; then our reward will be self-judgment and the judgment of other fallen people — we will never walk in victory!  However, if we define our spiritual lives by our belief in God; in who He is and in what He says; then we walk under the Grace of God!  Christ has given us the privilege of living as heirs with Him, but we must choose to walk in faith.  Not trying to justify ourselves against another’s failings, but instead accepting the justification that we have not earned – but have been freely given by God the Father through His son Jesus Christ.

I pray that the Father will help us to live for Him and not for ourselves.  I pray that He will help us to reserve judgement and instead show mercy.  I pray that He will help us to appreciate fully what it means to be given justification and to be counted as righteous through Christ. I pray that He will liberate us from the desire to check off a list of good deeds and ‘righteous’ acts.  I pray that we will allow Him to teach us what it means to be free indeed.

However, the law is not of faith; on the contrary, “He who practices them shall live by them” (Galatians 3:12)