Have you ever been asked to do something new? odd? different? Do you, in spite of your gifts/talents, shrink back a bit when tasked with something that feels bigger than you? I’m sure you don’t – but I sure do.
There is something about stepping out into some new ministry when you’ve had success in a smaller place that can take your breath. When I was in church ministry I felt like God was allowing me to work and minister in my sweet spot. But, I didn’t start off that way. I was quite content being an alto in the choir. My friend and mentor, the late Evangelist Brenda Waters, was talking to me over lunch at Picadilly Restaurant in Houston — she looked me square in the eye and said, “Whatcha scared of girl!? God has given you an ear for His music; He has given you a heart for His people; He has given you a voice that quiets a room! Just lead — you’re not a background singer; God created you to lead!” That started my life as a worship leader – my sweet spot. But just as I settled in to that, the call to missions came.
I couldn’t take my musical gift to Ghana in the same way that it had been used in the USA so I floundered for a short while and entered into a time of fear, afraid of being insignificant in the work of the Kingdom. Then the Holy Spirit helped me to see and understand what I was supposed to do in Ghana; lead people toward a life of worship; not just lead them in a worship service. Being in authentic relationships with people so that they would know what it was to live, move and have their being in Him. My new sweet spot! But before I knew it – another call came — lead!
This time He asked me to worship Him with my whole life in a way that others would do the same; to love Him in such a way that the people that I ministered to would feel His love poured out through me. Terrified! Didn’t God know about my failings? my bad attitudes? my own personal kind of crazy?! Yes! He knew all about it and we stepped into this role as ministry directors for Africa. And — you guessed it — my new sweet spot! Every time I get an email from a missionary saying that they feel heard and cared for — I know that this is place I’m supposed to be! The fears fell away – nothing is left except the power of God, the love of God and a mind that is clear about His purpose for me in this season and serious about being continually developed to operate fully in His purposes.
I want to encourage you. Push past the fear. Push past the feelings of inadequacy. Push past your fears and timidity. Push past your ego and your false humility. Push past the enemies lies that tell you that you are less than enough; inadequate; ill equipped. Press into the presence and power of God and you WILL find that your fears will cut tail and run! Trust me! More than that – Trust Him! When God asked you to do that next hard thing, that next new thing, that next step off of a cliff — know that He delights in showing forth His glory through you and doing more in and through you than you could ever have asked, thought or imagined! I don’t know who or what was vexing dear Timothy and making him feel timid — but Paul’s words to Him are for you today too…
For God has not given us a spirit of timidity, but of power and love and discipline. 2 Timothy 1:7
Father, I’m grateful – so very grateful – for your work in me. I could not do any of it apart from Your power; Your wisdom; Your guidance; Your will and my own submission and humility. I bless you tremendously, because you reminded me each and every day that all I needed was All Of You! Thank you for filling me with your Holy Spirit every day! Thank you for teaching me that leading meant reflecting Your Son, Jesus Christ each day AND submitting to you in a way that leads others to You! Thank you for letting me see and experience your daily new mercies! Thank you, Lord, for using me for the sake of Your glory, for helping me move past fears because You ensured me every day that what is in me are Your gifts and NOT MY OWN! My Wonderful and Faithful Father, I will be bold, loving and filled with good sense because I know what You have given me and I praise You for it!!