Self preservation – to some degree I’m sure it is a valid concern. I hear believers say things like, ‘I am available to help, but I’m not giving them all of my time’ or ‘They don’t need to know everything about me’ or ‘We are in the same small group, but they are not in my inner circle of friends’. Well, you probably have never said any of these things – or statements like them – but I certainly have.
The fall has made us selfish, fearful, distrusting, stingy, self-seeking; we all have the tendency to look out for number one. That Is Not God’s Way For Us! When we placed our lives under the Lordship of Christ – we effectively gave up our right to our lives and laid our lives out as tools for Him to use for the furthering of His Kingdom. The King that we serve intends that we all live selflessly, always giving others preference, always available to lend a hand, always ready to meet a physical need, always ready with a Word from the Lord for a situation, always ready to serve. Rest is necessary – and if you’re an introvert like me – alone time may be necessary; but we don’t have the right to shut people off because of inconvenience.
I believe that we hold back some of ourselves from others because we are holding back some of ourselves from God. [OUCH! – that hurt my own heart!] We want His salvation, we want His favor, we want His blessing; but we’d rather that He not have complete control. If we give ourselves to Him at His discretion – we would more freely give ourselves to one another. If we give ourselves to Him at His discretion – it would mean that He could do with us and in us as He chooses. If we give ourselves to Him at His discretion – it would mean that He is our Lord! And there lies the rub — is He really our Lord?! I can’t answer for you — but as for me, I need to begin again this morning the process of laying my life before Him.
I want Him to be the Lord of my life, my heart, my time and my resources; not only the God of my salvation. With fear and trembling this morning I ask Him to take my life and use it to His glory. I want it to be said of my life that I gave my very life for the sake of others with no regard to what it cost me. I want His presence and power to be evident. I want people to see Christ in my love and service to them. Giving up control is not easy but with fear, trembling AND great faith in Him — I come ….
and this, not as we had expected, but they first gave themselves to the Lord and to us by the will of God. (2 Corinthians 8:5 NASB)